too much

hello, idk what i’m doing tbh. i don’t know what to do. i think i used to have a eating disorder early in the year. like from january to april. i used to eat little bit during the day, and when night came, i ate everything and made myself throw it up. and it made me feel in control. but i stopped doing it. but right now i feel the need to do it again. i feel overwhelmed with everything and need to do something to feel in control again. how do i stop this?