I did it again
Hi, so I’ve been struggling with my weight and the methods I use to try and lose weight. Most of the time it would be me either starving myself or just binging after not eating for a while, but recently I’ve started to purge… to be honest, idek why I’m doing any of this cause every time I eat something I’m fighting the urge to make myself sick. I don’t want to do it and I even start to have a panic attack before I do but then I lose control and I can’t stop.
idk I just thought that by limiting my calories and not eating when I was hungry meant I was finally in control but now with binging and purging, I don’t think I even have a choice on what to do or how to feel anymore.
I don’t want this to be my life but it’s all I think about.
@straightforwardKiwi5925 I feel you. I had a period of purging when I was hospitalized, but it stopped when I wasn't allowed in the bathroom until 1.5 hours after eating. Luckily I never got much into it after that.
But I have no advice for not purging, other than staying away from the bathroom. Even if you ofc can purge anywhere.
I hope you will get better, and if you ever need to rant about it, just tag me, and I'll be there 😃