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I know you feel a sense of control by doing this. I have struggled with all these same issues since childhood. You don't see the love or value/worth in yourself, and it's a punishment. I struggled with this, but bingeing, purging, dieting... eating to feel comfort, ease pain, hating myself, feeling guilty, and purging and dieting to feel control. I messed up my stomach and metabolism this way. Controlling my weight, self worth and esteem, permanent health and body issues, pain, both physical and emotional. Find a professional to talk to. The trauma is not your fault, and in this life, you have only yourself. Like and love yourself. You are worthy. Be gentle with yourself, but you can see yourself out of this. You are a warrior. You have survived everything and everyone who tried to beat you...so be kind to yourself. Be the friend to yourself that you need. Right now you are showing to yourself everything that you have experienced... and this is where you are. So imagine if you turned that around and starting showing to yourself what you have needed someone else to show you? You are beautiful, and worthy. You have purpose. You are the only and best you... you are irreplaceable. Much love, peace and comfort to you, and gentle hugs.