dont sée the poing to live

you shouldn't feel that way, their is always a reason.

I'm sorry you are feeling so much despair. I have absolutely been where you are and know how hard those feelings can be. I am so glad that you are reaching out here and hope that you have been able to talk to a listener about how you're feeling - if not, I'd be happy to set up some time with you.

In terms of moving, I think it's worth really thinking through the pros and cons. Sometimes a change of setting can help you break a habit or feel like you're getting a fresh start, but big life changes can also bring a lot of stress in that for some people (including me) can trigger eating disorders more. And I think it's really important to be near your support network, though I don't know whether that's where you are or in London. At any rate, I am thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way, and if you want to talk through anything, just let me know.