Anyone that understands please
IVe been struggling with my ED these past few days and idk how to manage it and especially at night it's getting worse. I'm overwhelmed and all I can think about is how I can starve myself today and how am I supposed avoid food. I recently watched this movie about a girl with an Ed and I keep watching it over and over and over again as I'm using it as motivation. Idk how to manage these feelings and I just feel like breaking down and I just want someone to know someone close to me that won't judge me someone that will understand and help me. I just need to lose weight but I have no self control and all I can think about today is binging and purging.
@straightforwardKiwi5925 Girl/dude you are gonna be ok. But you need to get help, please. You need to get to a place where you feel good about yourself and your body again. I'm sure you can do it, but you need to find a good therapist, and get the hell out of the ED as fast as possible. Bc this "game" is not fun. It's not fun at all, and it's damn dangerous. You can die from this.
That said I know it's not easy. Not at all. I'm not in recovery myself, but I will be there in about two weeks from now. I will not be at an ED center (they doesn't want me, but that's a story for another time), but I will get help from a therapist, and that's gonna be good for me. I have suffered for almost 11 years now, and I don't wanna do this anymore. But I can't just stop. I need help from someone who can actually help me. And I think you should too 
@TheMadHatterWasHere thank you so much for replying that was really nice and kind of you. It's not easy for me to ask for help... especially from my family. Uh they won't understand and I don't want to be a burden. I'm really scared about what's about to happen next year bc I will be starting University and will probably move out soon and all I can hope for is that because then I would have a better chance at starving myself.
Btw you are really brave and amazing for seeking for help. I admire that, ur so strong! I hope you recovery goes well and that you may recover and Ik the journey won't be steady but from what I can tell Ik that you will do great :) I'm proud of you and you are doing amazing<3
@straightforwardKiwi5925 Trust me on this: You ED will get worse, mostly a lot worse, when you move for yourself. Like a lot worse. Mine did when I moved into my own apartment in april. It got from "well you are starving yourself, but you are gonna survive if you do it like this", 'till: "Okay you are starving yourself to a point where it's quite dangerous. You really DO need help".
So please(!) do yourself that favor that you get a therapist and get into treatment BEFORE you move into your own place. Bc if you feel like this now, it's gonna be a 100 times worse, when you decide everything yourself. It will!
@TheMadHatterWasHere thank you and I will try my best to seek for help. But I can't imagine my life without Ed... I can't remember one day that Ed was there. Ed has been my friend for too long and sometimes I get the courage to move on and recover on my own but she always comes back and haunts me. But I will try to get better step by step❤️ Good luck on your journey btw
@straightforwardKiwi5925 You too
