College and eating disorders
College can be a hard time for anyone, especially if you are dealing with mental illness. Eating disorders are no exception, with class work and late night studying and can be hard to keep yourself in recovery.
Here are some things to ask yourself:
-Am I sure I am ready for college? Am i doing it for me or do I feel pressured to go?
-What does recovery look and feel like?
-How can I manage my recovery while being in school? do i need to be a part time student? Are there classes I should avoid because of the course load? Is there classes I shouldn't take because the subject could be triggering?
-How can I manage things like therapy and support while being in college? Should I take night classes so I can do therapy in the morning?
-What does my hour to hour schedule look like? Do I have meal times planned in my day? Do I need to bring food with me to school?
It is very important that you set limits with yourself, because you don't want to over work yourself! You are very important and your health and well being should always come before things like school. You have a full life ahead of you to finish college, but you only have one you! 
If anyone would like to share how you are doing in college and recovery go ahead! I would love to see what your plan of attack is! I wish everyone there best on your personal journey to recovery and a happy and healthier life!
@Coolkidallthetime1998 I recall ruining my diet plans when I started college. It was a tough time. Ended up gaining almost [edited by Anomalia to remove weight specifics] pounds. Currently, I'm trying to cut it down.
Great post @coolkidallthetime1998
You brought up some good points. College is hard without trying to balance recovery, but when you have that to think about as well it can definitely become overwhelming. I feel like this post is very useful. Thanks for posting.
@TheAsh - Great questions to ask yourself, and I appreciate that you acknowledge that it's okay to not be ready for college if your health isn't in a good place for it. :)
@Anomalia thank you so much
This is a small important addition, but I don't know if it was addressed already.
In the US, a college cannot legally discriminate because of any condition, and this includes eating disorders. You might need to mention it on your medical files (or you can write about your experience as an essay topic), but you will not be automatically rejected because of that. Some schools (at least some in the UC system) may ask for more information about this, but once again, you cannot be automatically rejected for your condition.
In my experience, most campuses have multiple dining areas (cafeterias, kiosks, vending machines, stalls, cafes, etc.) so a good way to manage eating is by surveying your campus' food selection and picking out foods you are comfortable with eating. I generally stick to a similar menu (vegetables, fish, and rice) because having to think about the specifics of food (calories, nutritional content, etc.) can be distracting at the least, and triggering at most.
I schedule my meal times as according to my class schedule (7/8 am - 8 pm or 12+hours in school), while also leaving it flexible enough for special days (like needing to eat more for the day if you have night class or physical activity). I also don't force myself to finish my food, I just finish what I can :)
Not food related, but I still wear layers of clothing, even when it's summer. You'll find in college that both airconditioned rooms and open spaces are very cold, especially at night and early in the morning.
For staying awake, I try to limit my coffee intake as it gave my weakened heart (literal weaker heart muscles due to ED) palpitations.
Sometimes, I observe people's bodies and how different they all look. It makes me feel normal, that I'm not strange-looking after all. In my experience, people in my college value appearance less than qualities such as intelligence, leadership, or ability to relate with people. For me, that put into perspective how people don't remember how you look, but how you look on them with love.
should i starve myself to death
@liam91404 - It sounds to me like there's a lot of pain sitting behind that question, so let me answer with one of my own: what would it solve to do that? Is there a way to solve it that doesn't involve hurting yourself so much?