Exercise in Recovery
Hey Everyone,
Im posting this to see if anyone feels the same as me. Before my eating disorder developed I was never much a fan of exercise, I didnt like the competitiveness of team sports and I hated the idea of going to the gym where everyone could see me. The first time I tried the gym I ended up crying and leaving. Then I found yoga. This was an excellent opportunity to be alone without judgement and do something I genuinely enjoyed. But now months into recovery my ED is telling me once again that its not enough. Constantly telling me that I have to do longer sessions or harder intensity, or do something I dont enjoy to compensate. So my question really is that; Is yoga enough? Im tired of seeking validation and just want to be able to make and stick to decisions for myself.
Thank you for reading, I hope youre doing great! 💕
Oh I know exactly how you feel...
Before my anorexia I hated to do exercises/sport. I was neither able to run more than 5min at once, without breathing like a dog in summer. At first I made Yoga too, but I had the feeling it wouldn't be enough. Now there's no day without 1-2 hours of run. I do breakdance, pacour/free running, tennis and MMA — and I still feel like it would not be enough. I try to eat more (like a normal person do), and because of that my head tells me, that I have to do more exercise. "You was able to do sports, after eating nothing for two weeks — now you eat more and you should do more exercise, or why do you started to eat like that again?" And some days I don't want to eat, 'cause I don't want to do exercise. It should not be like that. No matter if I colapse while doing exercises, Ana wants more and more and more...
I hope it will get better and I hope you'll get better too. Try to gif a f*ck on this feeling; It's enough Bmble. Trust me: It's enough. 
Cheers
Jelly
— PS. This song helps me, sometimes, to overcome that not enough exercises feeling; maybe it helps you too: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7rQqmKm4bww
Thank you so much for your reply!
Im so sorry youre feeling this way as well, its so hard to try and combat these thoughts but we have to try harder!
Remember you do not need permission eat. Thank you once again for your sensitive reply, I hope everything gets better for you very soon. Keep on fighting Jelly 💕💕 @JellyFoxyn
