Feeling lost and out of control with ED
Today I found myself asking "why?". Why do I put myself through this, and why can't I stop? I always told myself that I would stop my habits at a certain weight, but it's become clear that I can't stop anymore. I'm frusterated because I wish I were stronger and that I could ignore everything going on in my head. I wish that I could move on no matter how much I hate what I see in the mirror. I'm just too afraid. I can't handle putting on any weight.
@Itslilyy
I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling lost and stuck right now. Some problems are too big to handle on your own and this might be an example of too big a problem. Do you have others that you can turn to for help near you? Or would you like some help trying to figure out who to turn to?
