I lost control
I just ate this delicious and amazing dish and now all I could feel is guilty and disgusted. I want to breakdown and just let it all out. I feel so tired. I'm done feeling this way but idk how to stop it idk how to control it, it controls me. I hate this body, every part of it, it's all flawed not one that is right about it. I just want it to stop. I don't want to be hunger but crave that feeling. I don't want to feel guilty but I can't help it. I don't want to look at myself in the mirror and breakdown.
@straightforwardKiwi5925 are you getting any additional support? It sounds like you are ready to recover. I hear and understand your frustration. It is one of the toughest things to conquour but it is possible to do so. The road to recovery requires a good team. I struggled with it for 25 years. I am blessed I did not have lasting affects because my higher power which is God was watching over me. I am so glad you reached out here. I would like to share some support group information with you and others, I just need to check an make sure how I can do so. People care for you even though you may feel your body is unloveable. There is more to an ED than just food. Please continue to reach out and find a good support team. Your welcome to reach out here again and to me in private messaging on 7 cups. Everyone here cares about what happens to you.
*edited by forum mentor @rebecca947 to remove offsite contact information*
@straightforwardKiwi5925 Hi girl/dude. I feel ya. I feel sooo guilty after eating more than the rules in my head says I should. I feel positively horrible! But I know it will get better. I can promise you it will get better. But you have to get help. If your family doesn't know, let them know. I don't know how old you are, but if you are over 18, just ignore the other part and get in contact with a good therapist 
