Opposite of anorexia...?
I'm 5'5", [edited by Anomalia for weight specifics / triggers] lbs. I think I might have an eating disorder but it's the opposite of anorexia. When I look in the mirror, I think I am too thin and unattractive. I constantly see things about how "real women have curves" and it destroys my confidence. I've been told I look healthy and even "curvy", but when I look in the mirror, I see a body that is not feminine at all. My measurements are [edited]. That would have been considered nice 20 years ago, but I feel like since the Kardashians became popular, extreme hourglass measurements [edited] are the only thing people see as attractive. In order to gain weight, I sometimes eat to the point where I feel sick, and I have to stop myself from throwing up. My friends have teased me for being too thin and I wish I looked like them. I always feel jealous of extremely curvy girls and I feel like that's what my boyfriend wants. I wish I could look in the mirror and feel attractive. I hate my body.
Hello @GoldieLox98! Thank you so much for sharing what you're going through--I'm so sorry you're going through this! While nobody can diagnose you with anything at 7 Cups of Tea, I would encourage you to look into Binge Eating Disorder and Body Dysmorphic Disorder, and to possibly think about speaking with a doctor or a mental health professional about these struggles to get a clearer idea of what's been going on and to help you get better. You're certainly not alone with this, and I'll be wishing you all the best!
@theworldisquiethere thank you very much for your concern. I will discuss this with my therapist. I think body dysmorphia is definitely a possibility because I seem to see myself differently than others do. I could have binge eating disorder. I will look into this.
I just want to say that there is a word out there that bodybuilders use. I don't remember the word but if anyone knows it they can say it.
@Fear333, are you thinking of muscle dysmorphia? It's a subtype of body dysmorphic disorder that's known for being found in the bodybuilding community!
@theworldisquiethere my boyfriend is a power lifter and I think he has this. He is a perfectly healthy weight for his height, but he thinks he is too thin. He is obsessed wit getting bigger, and it's sad because he's not unhealthy and he's very attractive.
