Treatment
I used to dread treatment. My eating disorder was my life and I would rather die than give it up. That was about, oh, six years ago? Now, not so much.I hate everything about the person I've let it turn me into, I'm bored of it, and I want it gone.
The thing is, for the time being, there's no treatment options for me. I live about 20 miles out from Oklahoma City and don't drive (I'm working on that). The nearest in/outpatient facility to me is 100 miles away in Tulsa. I've looked into therapy, but apparently everyone else's New Year's resolution was to recover as well so every therapist in my area and under my insurance plan is booked for the next several months. I was nearly admitted to a general psychiatric facility on New Year's Eve after confessing to a suicide attempt on Christmas, but even that I had to refuse. I simply don't have the money or time to be given proper care. Most of the time I don't even feel like I deserve it, and every time I come to a point of clarity that yes, I do need it and I should be trying to get it, something comes along and reminds me that I don't.
Do only the rich get to recover for good? Do I deserve to die because no doctor will ever seeme as anything but a wallet to milk?
That's a great way of putting it!My taxes go to these people on low income/government assistance/food stamps and I have limitations on insurance b/c I make too much money! I have epilepsy but the state thinks the people who are too lazy to get up every day and go to work qualify more for insurance? Makes no sense .. As for your problem, you say you are bored with it .. you know it's an issue, but you can stop. I am an alcoholic. I'm bored w/that too. It's hard for me to say no to the beer b/c i'm so used to it, but I know it's not good for me. I can stop. Well I hope you find a way for help.
Yikes, those are some very wrong opinions about welfare but okay. Thanks anyway.
I wasn't trying to be mean or offend anyone. That's how it is at least in my state. They are cutting my insurance b/c I make too much! Obama supports the poor. That's why people choose to be poor I think so the government can support them. Yet they criticize immigrants? My husband is Mexican and works so hard as well and we make an honest living to live a good life. It's sickening .. I'm thinking to move out of the USA.