Vent ig
Hey,
I’ve had periods of eating and not eating all within a week and I’m just tired all the time! I am really sick of feeling this way and the only thing I can think of is if I should starve myself or binge and purge or whatever sick thing my Ed wants to me to do. I just want to live without Ed’s voice in my head anymore. I don’t want to look at the scale and feel proud for starving or get upset when I see the number go up.
i wish I could get back the innocent little girl who thought that she looked good.
I really don’t know how much longer I have until I break down and just let go of it all. I just want to be normal, not this or whatever it is. I have to watch everything I say to others bc I’m scared that by either complementing them or saying something about weight loss that I could give them an Ed. I never want anyone to feel like this.
@straightforwardKiwi5925
hi there love! Im so sorry u feel this way and i know life is so hard for u right now! Although im jotbin ur shoes but i know one fact that im so proud of u for opening up and fighting through this!
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I dont think i’ve related to something more haha
at lunch with my friends I always just sit and eat my soup or boiled potatoes and stare at other people’s lasagne and nust wish i could eat like normal people and feel this stupid fucking guilt
@straightforwardKiwi5925 hi hi, I feel the same.. I have this little voice in my head that tells me im not hungry she I am to stop myself from feeling the hunger.. there are times I don't want to eat but I don't know if its an ed.. I can tell that ive lost some weight that I had but I don't think its bad- I have tried to make myself sick but it never works so I just see how long I can go w out food living off of water xx
