Always guilty

As a little kid I was called fat it's called big it's called chubby I'd feel that way when I turn 12 I got skinnier everybody said you're going to become a model and grow up you're going to become a model so I believed it cuz I didn't want to become a singer and I did six years of singing choir the play piano so I believed I was going to become a model my grandmother shamed me when I turned 15 calling me a *** saying that I was bad telling me that I was anorexic telling me that I got too skinny telling me that oh she cares too much about how fat she is that she became skinny that's how she became skinny that she's anorexic I cried I couldn't believe my own grandmother the person I was supposed to love me shamed me for being skinny I got skinny because I did a lot of dance I went running cuz I was on a track team and I used to have friends that used to do boxing so we had big box and stuff they taught me how to do it I did a lot of sports and basketball I have a life and I couldn't believe my grandmother had said that to me