Been binge eating for years now
Hello and thanks for reading,
I have been struggling with food addiction for years. I eat heavy quantities of junk food. I live with my partner and my son who is year and a half. I hide chocolate and I eat it when I am alone. Later I throw the empty bags “hidding it” aswell.
I think it started as a way of “eating my emotions”. I compensated that I was feeling emotionally unwell with food. Chocolates and sweets made me feel better. That was years ago.
But now I don’t have any issues, I am happy with my life. And I cannot stop overeating and always I think that I will stop buying junk food so I won’t eat it at home but I end up on the shop and buying again. Or thinking about doing it the day after if I couldn’t.
When my boyfriend is at home I can control myself because I feel ashamed if he finds out. He kind of know something but I am sure he is not aware of the total truth.
I think about therapy but cannot afford it…
I know this means nothing, but I am not fat or have any issues with my weight. I am really scared for my health as I been eating so unhealthy and large quantities for long time..
Anyone on the same path who would like to talk? Maybe some tips or something that would help me?
Thank you kindly 🫶
@driver1993
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It cannot have been easy to say this, thank you for trusting!
It sounds like you have a complicated relationship with food.
It's not about Shame.
Or judgement.
Or condemnation.
It's about limiting your intake a little each day, slowly but steadily.
Remove one treat each day.
You'll start to grow in confidence and eventually move onto being able to stop over indulging at all 💜💕
You are really brave for sharing your story with us @driver1993 . I have been through something similar before and I understand the emotional struggle you must be going through. I am glad you feel fulfilled with your life now, but sometimes old behaviours become habits that deeply affect our everyday lives. Sharing your feelings with a trustworthy person close to you (friend, boyfriend, family member etc.) could really lift some weight off your shoulders. No one deserves to go through stuff alone. There’s no shame in what you are experiencing, you should know that. I am sure your partner would love you no matter, there’s no room for guilt when it comes to eating. It is a way of survival.