My Eating Disorder
I’ll admit it… I have an eating disorder.
But… Not the kind you think.
I overeat… a lot. To the point of making myself feel sick.
I don’t purge. I don’t starve myself (although I once stopped eating for a month- I literally couldn’t eat without nearly throwing up- and nearly ended up in either a psych ward or the ER). I just… eat. It’s comforting. For that moment… I forget. It makes me happy.
I want to stop… But I don’t. I like food. Too much.
How does one stop using food as medicine?
To me eating disorder means wrong relationship with food.
So, yeah i also kinda like this, maybe because culture as well that highlighting food as a reward or treat for celebration. Even its funeral, we eat food. Food for healing, food for comfort, food for living, and food as friend.
In time when i feel lonely and needing food to fill my mouth i eat no other stuff but fiber. Or ice cubes. Or banana. Anything that wont help me gain weight. If i gain weith i will not eat in the bare minimun until my weight is back to i usually are.
Hi, I also am struggling in a similar way! Using food for soothing difficult feelings.
I have the same problem too. When I not feeling well I eat much more than the usual. I literally can't stop eating
I have the same problem. If I’m bored,alone,happy,sad. I eat. I’m so disgusted sometimes. I think the main goal is to have someone in your corner.
It's it really medicine if you like it too much and you are overeating? It sounds like you have an ED, but I have to s respectfully disagree with the analogy to medicine.
I’m still doing it, but it’s worse now. It’s affecting my daily life, making it hard to eat breakfast when I’ve binged the night before, etc. I want to be normal again… It’s like I’m using food as a drug. :(
I really wish I had an alternative to my food addiction… I hate myself after I eat. Almost every time. I disgust myself.
I think it takes a lot of courage to admit something like this, especially because people don’t always recognize overeating or binge eating as an eating disorder. A lot of the conversation around eating disorders focuses on restriction, but using food as a source of comfort can be just as painful and difficult to deal with.
What stood out to me is that you said food helps you forget and makes you happy, even if it’s only for a moment. That doesn’t sound like you’re weak or lacking self-control—it sounds like food became a coping mechanism during a time when you needed comfort. The problem is that food can numb difficult feelings temporarily, but it usually can’t solve whatever is causing them, so the cycle keeps repeating.
I don’t think the answer is to stop liking food or to punish yourself for eating. Food isn’t the enemy. Maybe the goal is to slowly find other things that can provide some of the comfort, relief, distraction, or peace that food currently provides. That’s obviously easier said than done, and it often takes time, support, and a lot of self-compassion.
The fact that you’re aware of what’s happening and that you’re asking this question tells me that part of you already wants something different. Recovery usually starts there—not with having all the answers, but with being honest about the struggle. I hope you’re able to be gentle with yourself and reach out for support if you haven’t already. You deserve help just as much as anyone dealing with any other type of eating disorder. ❤️