Struggling with food

I honestly have a mixed relationship with food, i used to be anorexic and then got BED. It keeps jumping between those honestly, atleast feels like it. I really thought i had recovered, i mean i had normal eating habits for a few months but ever since my body dysmorphia got worse ive been again struggling with food, its like whenever i think of how fat i am now my body starts hating on food, i get sick really easily, feels like ive eaten a huge meal but im just few bites into my meal. But then after that happening for a good while i start overeating like eating when bored when stressed or just when i see food, but then my body just seems to be genuinely wanting that food and is begging for more and i just dont feel satisfied for long enough. I tend to end up eating at midnight cause i feel like my dinner wasnt enough. I really hate this as overeating is making me feel worse cause i just feel fat and ive been recently hiding my body with oversized clothes cause of the weight gain.