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I need help. I’ve started to restrict my food intake, and some days are easier, some days are worse. Like I’ve gone 2 days without eating anything but pretty much dinner. Yesterday I ate nothing but dinner, a banana, chips and a milkshake. It’s also gotten worse as well. It’s like my brain says, you’re not allowed to eat, you don’t deserve food, you’re not worthy. But then my body also screams at me and says EAT, PLEASE JUST EAT SOMETHING, ANYTHING. But like it also goes LOOSE WEIGHT, YOURE FAT, UGLY, YOU NEED TO BE THIN. It’s such a conflicting that my head it’s literally arguing with itself so some days I’ll eat and others I’ll barely eat anything. It’s really hard. And all in all, I don’t feel good enough… I hate myself sooo much.
@GracieMACK
This sounds incredibly hard, and I’m really glad you said it out loud. That fight between your mind and your body is exhausting, and no one deserves to feel punished by their own thoughts. You’re not ‘unworthy’ of food or care, that’s the disorder talking, not the truth. You’re struggling, but you don’t have to sit in this alone. There are listners here to support you. 💛
Thank you so much @colorfulPanda8664
@GracieMACK
You absolutely are worthy.
You deserve to heal
To be healthy.
To be happy.
To have love for yourself.
You are worthy 🩵
I completely understand your struggle. I've been through this, and still am struggling at times. What has helped (even just temporarily) is to let go of the dieting mindset completely. Basically I tried to allow myself to eat anything at any time however much I want. This may feel scary, but only by doing this, you will stop feeling deprived, which then over time allow you to eat with respect to hunger cues but not the fear, deprivation, and guilt. If you are interested, please check out the book "Intuitive Eating" written by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch. It helped me a lot, and I also re-read it whenever I fall back to the dieting mindset. Hope it helps. You are not alone 💜
