TW: SH and ED

I have diagnosed depression but I don't have anything else diagnosed. I know I'm just doing all this for attention, but I honestly don't like being confronted about it. I used to cut only because other people told me to and to post it in a group that encourages that stuff. I also used to starve myself or restrict, but it was never for very long. Like a bit ago, I really didn't want to eat because I was trying to restrict and I thought I ate too much. Even when my friend came over, I didn't eat. Whenever anything mental health related happens to me, my sister always calls me an attention seeker and to just stop. After my friend left that time, my sister told me "now you're starving yourself for attention?" Or something like that. It really just made me want to restrict more, I don't know why. Maybe to make my sister feel bad I'm not sure