The Battle

I got into poetry.. but this one hit home the minute I wrote it.. it's about the hardest time in my life..

Trigger WARNING ⚠️

"I really do try. To the point I cry tears,

When they ask,

'Why is it so hard to swallow food?'

I began to wonder

Why myself. Why it's so hard. I start to

Wonder why... Why a lot...

Why do I organize all my foods so I can

See the calories on all of them?..

Just to keep up with how

Many I tend to consume? I don't know

Where the people who question

Are coming from.. The Battle gets harder.

Because now, I can't even be near food.

I can't look at it and I can't smell it.

It don't matter what it is.

I think I will give up.

That my body will eventually give up..

But it never makes it there.

So I question something different nobody else does...

'When does The Battle end?'"

- Kayli Leanne Whyel