anorexia relapse
just a little vent but feel free to give me advice
I've not been eating well for a few months now and sometimes I actually do my best to get better but for some reason I always fall back to restricting. I even told a few ppl I know that I'm trying to gain weight but that doesn't seem to motivate me anymore
and ofc I've been noticing the side effects, the big ones being weight loss (duh), not being able to concentrate on my studies, and possibly not getting my period anymore? idk if it's just late though, I'm still waiting
the weight loss has been motivating me to lose more weight and I've noticed a weird thought I keep getting: "I just need to lose more weight and *then* I'll recover". basically procrastinating on recovery until I feel sick enough I guess? it's rlly dumb
anyway I literally can't afford therapy so *** I'll just suffer through it 😀
@rainbowelf hugggs you ❤❤
@rainbowelf
The struggle for recovery and the eating disorder voice can be challenging to balance. What are things that you have told yourself before that has been helpful when you've made positive steps toward recovery and have been able to eat?
something that helped before was telling myself that I'd fail school if I didn't recover (lmao) and that I'm super cute and hot if I'm not underweight lol
Tbh this is me fr, If I have to give you advice maybe eat with someone who like geniuly cares? Or just eat with other people? Maybe that'd make you eat more? (Depends tho cus some PPL eat less cus they r embarassed but some eat more as to not concern the other) or try to order the stuff you like better, or eat with smn you love. [Idk this might seem stupid, but this is what I do to eat more]
tysm <3 I'd love to eat with someone but there's only three ppl who know about my struggles and they're all not in the area lol. I've considered telling my irl friends but eh scary
Understandable tbh, or try to slowly increase your portions maybe that would help? I hope you go into complete recovery <3