eating
i decided to try eating a little more in the weeks leading up to my assessment (feb 28 😩) but i don’t think i can do it.
is it always so difficult to eat? i don’t remember it being like this.
i tried going from fasting frequently to eating twice a day but i literally cannot handle the bloating it makes me look so big and i can’t handle the feeling of the food inside me. it makes me start thinking abt the calories and that’s just Evil
im still conflicted. maybe recovery isn’t for me. i went back into my old habits and i generally felt better about myself even tho i could still go to start losing again. i miss food but it disgusts me
does anyone have any advice? i feel stuck. like i’m supposed to recover, but i’m just not ready. i know they say you’ll never be ready for recovery but i genuinely can’t sleep at night thinking about the possibility of me getting fat like everyone’s been telling me recovery does. it terrifies me but also i don’t rlly think i have an ed bc if i did ppl wouldn’t think i was already recovered when i try to tell them. (which i’m still thinking abt what that could mean for me and my weight 😭)
sorry for the rant/rambling 😭 idk where else to go with this and i’m really not used to using stuff like this 🤔 it feels very strange and exposing
@majormajorsIn fact, not all foods make people fat, not even meat. Only carbohydrates will do (noodles, rice, etc...) As long as you check the relevant information online, I believe you will feel more at ease. And being thin does not mean being good-looking. I personally think that men prefer those with a better figure, so most girls with such a figure will be fatter (except for surgery). And many South American countries like fat girls. I actually care about my figure, but I care more about my stomach and my health. My thighs are already very fat now hahaha. As long as you don't eat after seven o'clock in the evening, everything else is fine. Go out and do some exercise. Girls with a little bit of muscle are also very beautiful! !