vent (some triggers) ~sorry for grammar and spelling
I feel so fricken fat, i’ve only lost half a kilo. I went on the treadmill today pushing myself to the point my ankles and bottom partition of my legs were on fire, I feel so ugly and fat and like I ate way to much today when I only had 4-5 whole grain crackers with sweet chilli sauce and cream cheese, a chocolate chip cookie and dinner, witch was beef strongagoff with rice. I feel like a whale, I look so fat and when I was going for a walk around school to do my step goal on friday someone asked if i had just came back from macdonald (our school isn’t too far from it) I dont know if i’m thinking to much into it but it hurts and i think in the next week or so we will be talking about body image and most likely eating habits and exercise and i don’t know if i can deal with that, last time it made me really insecure again and feel like crap, with things being the way they are i know my brain will process it differently and end up exercising more, feeling insecure, eating less/more/restictedly and maybe even cause me to make myself throw up. I’m probably over thinking it all but i’m currently been feeling like *** and i don’t think i could handle it getting worse.
@willingSugar9815 Hey guy or gal, I hope you know that this is a safe space, and we (almost) all of us feel that way sometimes. Being taught about the topic in school why trying to battle those very thoughts are tough, and I hope you can get through it! I will look out for your posts, if you need to talk to someone. You are always allowed to tag me, and I will be here as fast as I can to listen :)
I know the feeling of feeling fat. Both when you aren't and when you are actually overweight. I have been battling this since I was 13, and it is hard every day. Though it has become easier over time. I hope you can get through it, and if it feels too hard then tag me and we can talk if you need to talk :)
