Trigger warning: loss of mother

I’ve lost the only person I still had that loved me but was subject to foul play by my brother and rogue hospice nurse,…2 years after she was imprisoned by restraining orders and a smear campaign me so I would lose my family, my home, while he was stealing all her money in a conservatorship he bullied into agreeing to lest he would leave her with no support, spending hundred of thousands of dollars on partying and hookers and paying lawyers to help legally bully me and get her house put into a trust with only him on it, keepinh her from being able to use the phone or blow the wyilstle on him. I was in and out of homelessness, a software engineer who graduated ucla and my ex leaving me after draining me financially and dealing with her drug induced mental illness—a drug run and her parents are sick as well who kick me out on the street with no notice. I couldn’t see my mom for 5 years, while I had friend poisoned against me by him so i had no support and no income, dealing with ptsd after dealing with my ex and my brothers initial legal onslaught , my mom calling and leave messages daily trying to sneak calling me or my brother will yell at while I have to go to homeless shelters and in and out of psych wards so I could get a bed and a meal. Finally during Covid, my brothers ends the conservatorship and the restraining order ended—my father also trapped and isolated by my brother dies without me being there, without my dog that died there., and Having a new job and having rebuilt my life from going to jail for sneaking to my moms house to give her a hug and tell her ok ok after me first sleeping on the street,I get a arrest warrant for violating restraining order my mom didn’t want to be on, from her house that he climbed to live at with me and made up all this stuff to get a DV move out….until I dealt with jail and then affording a lawyer to help me, to reunite with my mom and now is like a little kid that I take care of with her Alzheimer’s…but I was grateful to take care of her as a labor of love because my mom was a great mom And she took care of me and then I took care of her until I needed more help and put her in a board and care but stlll visiting almost everyday and getting her whatever she wanted when she called. I saved the house from my brother selling it, and while living with him and my mom while I have him taken to psych hospitals, he’s still messing me up again. But while moms house and my brothers now who moved in when he spent up all her savings and couldn’t afford her caregivers anymore—I collected all the evidence I could on his criminal elder abuse on him. He’s out of state, keep knowledge from him about my mom but he eventually finds out and while my mom I have been talked in my kaiser to put her in hospice, a rogue hospice nurse I haven’t authorized for caring for mom and I didn’t know, without a doctor authorization one night begins “continuous care” giving her lethal morphine and Ativan with never been given this, tells me this on a call on the morning that my mom died and my brother flew in that night to say goodbye…and have gotten away with conspiring to murder my mom, who I saw the day before and knew where she was and knew me and sounded good….becUse she was hospice, the police wouldn’t start a murder investigation. And y this time I was evicted from the house I had rented for me and my mom after the house had to be sold to pay for care and I was dealing with depression and PTsd and I am now in a different state and my life’s still f***ed with facing another eviction, have no friends really, just a dog, and I got no justice with my brother. And I hurt from losing mana. I am struggling to find a job, I have little money, no family to turn to anymore. I’m so alone and need some love.