I need help to make a decision

Hello all

Im cesar im 23 yo

My friend is called haneen

We are friends for 6 years now and attached to each other in a strong bond

But lately things began to change

She was in a relationship and i proposed (we both knew her relationship wont last)

And she said : im sorry cesar but i can't see you more than a friend

And it's totally fine by me i wasn't even sad because i already knew my chances are like 2%

After her breakup with her ex she started asking me to give her less care. And i did cause i want her to be comfortable

After a while she asked for less care too and i did (i changed my everything about her)

But she kept asking me to care less

I mean how TF i can give no care to my best friend

I couldn't take it anymore i blew in her face and we started fighting because she's asking me not to act normally with her and to wear a mask while talking to her even tho we're the safe house that we go to to hide from the world and act the way we want without being judged.

When we were arguing about it she said : idk why but im can't be myself around you. After you proposed i can't see you the same way again.

I was shocked and hurt because after i proposed we agreed to forget it completely and we went out to a restaurant to have fun laughed alot and had fun.

I told her that : things began to change not immediately after i proposed

There's something happened and you don't want to talk about it. We can't stay like this out relationship is toxic AF. We need to change something for the better.

She said : ok i don't have anything in mind and im tired of this argue we've been doing it for days now. I have a solution but you didn't like it

I was shocked told her are you serious?

She said : no no not that we're not ending us. The way im asking you to treat me puts you outside ur comfort zone. And the way you treat me normally puts me outside my comfort zone.

I said : we need a solution. Please think about it. Ill think too

She said : a solution for both of us. When u have something tell me well discuss it in order to go back to the peace we had.

Out conversation ended here.

Guys i can't handle to lose her. She don't want to end our relationship with each other. Even tho If she want to she will i know her.

Things are getting worse were both in depression.

Please anyone have a solution ill be happy to hear

(ending us isn't on the list)