A new member

Hi there ... I'm new here, 18 years old .. just feel lonely, used to do everything alone, to keep silent, not to open up... Not to trust even my friends and open up for them .... Love reading and writing ...

Face a problem that annoys me and need help.... I used to leave in an imaginary world since I was 9 or 10 years old, used to imagine new events or a new ending for every film I watched while on bed till I fall asleep, then it developed.... I used to imagine characters from novels I read and speak out loud with those characters... And imagine situations or other life that I'm a part of... That tires me, makes me feel annoyed, embarrassed with myself and it also tires my mind which thinks and imagines all day.... But at the same time it amuses me as I stay alone and speaks with no one ....

Anyway I want help... I want to stop this... But how...?

I tried before numerous times but I failed.. what should I do....?

Plus: What's the chatting system here..how do you have a chat together... I want to join .. and I hope to have new friends here ...

Excuse me for the long message... Wish you all happiness and peace

Thanks