Friend breakup
Hi I'm new here and just feeling really lost. I'm going through ending a friendship with someone after 5 years and 2 prior chances for them to change their narcissistic behavior. I cut them off completely, no contact, but I'm still anxious about letting go. I feel like I'm a bad person, that I'm too emotional and should just go back.
One example of things is we both streamers and I basically quit due to them starting fights while I was live and i had to pretend I was ok, followed by the degrading comments I would get after my streams. I want to get back into it and I'm scared to because of them, even though they can't do anything to me.
I hate that I still care, it takes everything in me to not go look at their socials. I know it's only been a few weeks but I'm scared of going back, I don't want to put myself through a "friendship" that makes me feel worthless and cry everyday again.
@Cassm8988
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You made a brave and hard choice to protect your own mental health and energy reserves.
This does not make you a bad person.
Friendship shouldn't be about attachment or insults or feeling worthless or fearful.
They should be honest and fun and uplifting.
It's hard now because you are a good person and you cared but in time you'll heal and move forward 💕💜
I hope you are doing okay now 🫂....
I have been in your place multiple times...and it is good that you have picked your mental health and which very valid...and sometimes you will miss them or may want to be with them...but I assure you that it will fade after sometimes...it is very hard to choose to cut ties with people you thought you new them best...but now you are now in a much more happy place..
All the best..Hope my words help...😁😁