How Do I Get This To Stop?

Currently not even a month into junior year of high school and so much has already happened.

I can just tell my friends are tired of my problems even when I try my best to not bring them up. Ive had a feeling for some time now they they hate me and will try to shut me out slowly. They communicate differently than I do, using slang and references I don't get, and even when I do I dare not to say because it feels wrong coming from me. It's in the way they talk to me, it either ends up in me feeling humiliated or put down and I can't tell if it's just they way they talk to those close to them as a lot of the time people joke like that. I just can't read the tones properly and always feel like the hate felt is genuine to skme degree.

When I'm left with one friend or the other I can't bring the same joy that they being each other. I'm not enough and I feel left out, envious almost and I know that makes me sound selfish. I want it to stop but I can't, I want to be treated the way they treat wach other, but I can't show emotion through text and I can't decipher tones when speaking in person.

I know it's on me for not being able to communicate, but I can't bring myself to just staright up and ask "do you hate me?" I feel desperate and stupid for being like this. I can't bring myself to, and what if they aren't even mad and ive been spiraling for months on something I thought was going on???

I can't even describe every to the fullest extent because of how bad I am at communicating. I hate that I can't. I want the overthinking to stop with either getting an answer or just forgetting about it, but everything that happens when I'm woth them just keeps reminding me and I get pushed into a bad mood.