Loneliness

Hi my English is not that good so please ignore that…

I am 19 years old and I want to share my story.

About two months ago, i was on a vacation with my boyfriend and he broke up with me. We were in that relationship for two years. I wasn’t expecting him to do that actually, I believe that he was probably the love of my life…or I just think that. He said that he had enough of me and that really hurt, because I always wanted to make the relationship better and I forgave him multiple times. He even broke up with me three times during our relationship and I forgave him.

In the back of my head I just knew something wasn’t right, because a few days before he didn’t want to say anything about our future together and so on….

If you want to imagine what our relationship looked like it wasn’t just bad. He was my safe space and I was really in love with him. I gave all my energy to that relationship and I feel like the energy just gone away with it. I feel so empty.

Furthermore, about one year ago my best friend just ghosted me and never spoke to me again. I wanted to meet with her but every time I tried it, she made some excuses of it and till now, I don’t know the answer why we don’t talk anymore.

So even at the time he (my ex) was really special to me, because he helped me through my dark times. Our bond was really strong because at the end of the day it was just the two of us against the world, but he decided to leave from our world…

Now I am not feeling my best and I don’t really have anyone close enough. I just feel so lost and empty.

If you’re feeling the same way or you just want to send me a message, I’m here.🤍