Self-introduction:Friendship/confidence/anxious

Hi everyone, nice to meet you all. I'm a woman over 25 and has facing challenges for more than a year. The challenges are from my change of identity. Before I was confident, now not. Now I'm facing the big pressure from the outside world and myself. I tend to be judging and very serious to myself, which seems a little good but have a negative influece on my own feeling and interpersonal relationships.

For my relationship with friends and superiors, I need to say I just start contacting with people half an year ago. Three years before, I was too anxious with my compentences and unable to use my time to play or make friends. Before I stayed at home a lot. So I do have difficulties in relationships. For example there are 4 more times I got excited and said something wrong, which cause negative consequences. However in my situation I need patience.

Half an year before I neet a boy and I thought maybe we can be good friends. Exactly I TRUST that. But the reality proved that maybe he is wearing a kind mask and making friends according to his interest. It's a terrible experience for me but I won't remember this, it's not deserve.

Thank you)