loneliness

hi everyone , i’m new here but i’ve been struggling a lot with loneliness and idk how to cope with it. i used to be able to enjoy my solitude but the more tht time passes by the more sadder i get and the more it starts to affect me. i feel like it’s consuming me. i lost 2 of my bsfs because I CONFRONTED them abt talkn mess abt me and they’ve treated me like i was the issue ever since. this was longer than a yr ago and idk how to deal with it either. i try my best to forget abt it but i js don’t see how it’s fair tht i confront them and then they turned it around on me ? mind u, i never once would’ve expected this from these girls. i show up for everyone and no one ever shows up for me, i sit and rot in my room every hour of the day. i’m 17 years old in texas. and i need friends who won’t make me feel left out. i need REAL friends. i’m so tired of being alone, somedays i genuinely think it’s gonna kill me not having anyone to reach out to.