why do I always end up being lonely?

heyy

istg idek what to say but here I'm feeling so lonely lmao. never in my wildest dream I thought I would go through ts.

So it all starts from the class 10(rn im in 12)

I have studied my whole life in this one school which was the best.

had alot of friends nd I was quite popular favorite of everyone ukk.

I had a bf in 10th with whom I broke up for some issues.

he was manipulative he was just obsessed with my body which I hated the most.

Things happened ikk it was my mistake asw did the things I shouldn't have. I realized my mistake nd felt so bad the only was I saw was too leave him.

so did I.

Then some of my best friends betrayed me was backbiting abt me saw the screenshots of that *** nd blocked almost everyone i knew.

ik it was my mistake too blocking everyone makes no sense but I felt betrayed so bad.

atp I had no contact with anyone.

just some mutual friends

talked to his guy from my school

he made me feel so special made my life so blissful. helped me with everything emotionally mentally.

then he proposed me at first i rejected because I wasn't sure nd I was done with love nd *** alr.

but then eventually things change nd we got together (LDR)

we were so in love.

but then guess what all the *** boys are same.

he legit chose someone new over me.

things ended so badly.

rn im left with no one.

idk what to do atp.

abt my family they live abroad because hahahahah I ain't my dad's biological daughter.

got to know ts recently which shattered my heart.

I've no one

no family

no friends

no one who loves me.

just me nd my lord.

I just feel lonely af nd empty.