I wish I could tell everybody that...

I'm suffering

I am so stupid, I understand the class in hours.

I have to study 6 hours to something,will done in 2 hours by my friends.

I love to pretend that I am sick. I think sick people everybody love them. I imagine everyday that I am not okay and I am hospital so everyone want to talk to me and they take care of me.

I can't stop thinking about this.

@mylifeaseva I'm terrified of being alone

I need their support not their judgement. I didnt choose anxiety and depression. To stop TELLING me what to do, playing the good cop/bad cop routine. I wish my family would stop being so spiteful when I say Ican't or won't do something they expect me to do- because it is annoying for THEM.

...I'm not okay. That I also have feelings, and that I feel completely alone. That I'm tired of telling myself "I'm not enough". And that, if I don't tell them anything it's because I don't want to bother them with my problems, and because I know they won't take me seriously anyway.

I'm not crazy. I just have been through a lot in life and the emotions get too much sometimes.

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm so unhappy in how I'm living my life. I wish I could tell them all that I feel like I'm forever going to be as I am, no changes. Above all things, I wish I could tell them all that, most nights, I want it all to end. I wish I could tell everybody that I wish I was dead.

I am constantly depressed & what they see of me is a fake front of have developed so that no one is affected by my mental health. It's an exhausting charade that works for everyone but me. I cry constantly when no one is around - I can't make it stop.

@mylifeaseva that I feel depressed