I wish I could tell everybody that...

That I'm tired. I hurt, I'm sad. I wish I could break something (leg/ankle) so I could just rest. 😭

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not weak, and I don't give up, and that I'll never toy with anyone's feelings.

I wish I could tell people how I hurt inside. How broken I am. I self harmed for the first time and I am trying to convince myself that I won't do it again but I enjoyed it depots how much it hurt.

When I'm quiet, I'm not sad. Stop making me feel like shit for finding my own peace or not normal because I keep to myself.

I'm hurting so much inside, but cannot rely on anyone to help me shoulder that burden.

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not just here to make you feel better then be ignored. I'm not your toy for you to play with to comfort you then throw aside. My feelings matter, my problems matter. I'm worth fighting for, worth loving, worth getting to know and worth being with. I deserve better

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm doing great as mean it

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm lonely

I'm asexual and I never felt sexual desire. I don't get wet when I see a man naked and I don't masturbate when I watch porn.

I'm a nudist but that doesn't mean I will give you nude pics.

To my fucking ex, who " regrets that he met me " : I had depression and cut my legs because you made me feel like the last shit on this planet. I hate myself for wasting my time with you. Now i know that i deserve better.

To my parents, who supported me only financially : more than your money, I needed true friends to talk with, not fights and physical punishment. Stop comparing me with my brother, stop telling me how better he is and how I'm gonna fail all of my life if I can't be more than average. I'm sick of comparation and discrimination. I can't wait to leave this fucking house and live how I always wanted.

I am not trying to be mean. I want to be your friend, but having anxiety and not really having the appropiate social skills, may make me come across as unfeeling. I do care about you, I really do want to get to know you.