Things get better. Never give up.

I want to see things from everyone's perspective and understand what everyone else understands and walk around in their shoes. I just wish that they would walk around in mine too.

I have struggled with Depression and Anxiety and have had serious suicidal ideations which have landed me in hospitals, but I am a better person now for it. I am reliable, dependable, and a hard worker. The college I was accepted to asked for an explanation as to why my grades had dropped so steeply in my senior year. I wrote a draft of the truth: I couldn't get out of bed and spent all of my time fixating on my own demise. But when I gave that to my dad to proofread he said, "Don't talk about suicide. That might freak them out." If the school knew what I had really done they wouldn't want me. They wouldn't trust me not to off myself while I was a student, giving them a bad statistic and a bad reputation. So I just 'spread myself too thin', I 'hadn't learned how to say no', 'too much of a good thing', hermione with a time turner. Same sort of thing happened when I wrote my admissions essay. I can't get too personal, too specific or I'll scare them. They don't want a student with mental illness. So I don't lie, but I skirt around the truth, refusing to mention the elephant in the room that they don't know is there. I want their help, support, and acceptance, but I'm too scared to tell them the truth. "Tell me about yourself:" I'm fine.

Exactly what I want to at the exact time I want to say it.

That I can't cry because I run dry on tears. That there's no one to listen to my screams. That everyone turned their back on me when I needed them the most. That I feel like a caged animal. And I Dont need them anymore.

I wish i could tell everyone that I'm tired.

Tired of everyone

Tired of everyting

you have everything you need to be happy....stop worrying about the past ..stop worrying about the future...focus on now...

I want to say why I, a kid, love the taste of cinnamon toast crunch

I'm so mad right now, my boyfriend keeps talking to his ex and that makes me furious

I am and always have been suffering from depression..Maybe people wouldn't do certain things to me and try to have some caring compassion towards it. It would be nice and help a ton...