I wish I could tell everybody that...

I'm really not the satanic mute girl in the corner of the classroom, I just have really bad social anxiety.

I wish I could tell everybody that they mean so much to me without feeling uncomfortable and awkward expressing feelings.

I wish I could tell everyone that I'm not the only one to blame. I wish I could say the dirt in my hands are from theirs. I wish, I could tell the truth about faults that made is not define anything, specially if you make them made in the first place.

I hurt just like everyone else. My smiles are masks of bravery. Inside I'm crying.

It's OK that I give up sometimes. I get back up eventually. I need to fall once in a while to show me how good I have it.

I cant live without my only friend and father fugure who killed himself last month. I can't cry I can't do anything becase I'm afraid that I'll go back to the psych ward. It was bad there some of the people there got into a fight about who should rape me and you can't cry without a nurse checking in on you. I can't tell my new consular what I feel becase i was told when I was released that depending on how I do and feel after the funeral they might send me to a assistance liveing place where I'd be monitored by nurses. I feel like my right to greave has been denied and that I can't tell my new consular what I'm realy feeling becase she could send me away again. I can't talk to anyone about suicide or the fact that I've started halusanateing. I keep hearing the surch helicopters that where looking for my friend when he was missing. I keep seeing the walls shrink and move. When I was a kid i was isolated and i was forsed to beat my only friend over and over. She was my dog and I broke her rib becase my dad would have hurt me if I didn't. He ended up killing her. Ever since my friend died I can feel my dog on my skin. I can feel the rob break I can feel how it felt back then. My friend is dead he's dead he's dead he is dead and it's my failt

I wish I could tell everybody that more than half the time I just wish I could disappear, be someone else some where else because I feel people would be happier and better off without me.

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm fine...and mean it.

I wish i could tell everybody that i'm bisexual and i'm ok with it and don't judge me..

I'm not sure what I want my life to be...