I wish I could tell everybody that...

@mylifeaseva that I'm transgender

It's okay to be alone. Just because no one is there, doesn't mean nobody's there if you catch my drift 🌸

I've already given up, just because the paramedics stopped me, they didn't save me, I'm just in limbo now, I made peace with not being here anymore, and now that I am still here I don't know what to do except what people tell me to do.

I am gay

Sometimes I need to take care of myself before I take care of others.

Homophobia is not gone, it's not okay and it causes so much pain.

that I have terrible self esteem issues and just think I'm so so stupid and cry half the time

...I'm doing my best

No matter what remember the cup is always half full

That I was raped at 11 for 1 year by a pastor, my stepdad. Lied to my mom it wasn't happening. Went to live with my great grandmother and great uncle...stayed for 7 months and they died 2 days apart from each other, double funeral at 13. After that my Uncle took me, and pressed charges on the step dad, I stood trial as a 13 yr old girl and put him away for 17yrs. During the whole ordeal my mom wouldn't speak to me since I kinda ruined her life, neither did my sisters. So 2 yrs no mom no nothing. 15 got to come home. My mom loved me again yeahhh! But.... married a drunk and drug abuser and I moved yet again with friends this time at 16,..... graduated while with friends also had a baby in Oct at 18. My mom's path soon turned and at 20 I found myself motherless yet again but this time for good. She passed. Now I have me and 2 sisters to take care of at 20, 16 & 15 nothing was left for us. No house, no money, no close family to help. Tried college but still cannot pin point what I want to do. I have no close older relative to guide or give words of wisdom that actually really care about me. I'm trying so hard not to give up at 32. I wanna say all that to everyone because I put up such a positive front that no one really knows how hurt, damaged, and ready to give up I really am.