I wish I could tell everybody that...

I am not a stupid person.

I'm not happy.

I've had enough. I could make my own life, even if things get tougher for me.

All I feel is pain everyday. All I want is for people to suffer because I've been through so much. I hate life it won't give me a fucking break! I tried be a functioning human being but I lost EVERYTHING I have. I hate myself for trusting in people, all they do is let me down. I literally hate everyone around me, and I just want to die. I tried of people telling me I should live! I have nothing, literally, I'm using stolen phone! I Don't care to live this is probably my last post. At least I got that off my chest.

that i want to die

I'm not okay, and that I need help to become the person I used to be

Like it or not this is as well as I can do right now # doing the best I can

That depression and anxiety are valid illnesses and that I'm not just "too needy". And that my being able to go through life "normally" (most days) doesn't mean I was faking it or that I'm suddenly, miraculously cured.

I wish i could tell everybody how much pain i had now.. How much i miss my baby how much i miss him... Everyday is a torture.. I smile but deep down my soul shouts ...bring back my baby...bring back his life... But i know nothing will happen just accept the fact that my baby is gone

Moving forward but forever in our hearts

I wish I could tell everyone that

1) I struggle every day with my mental issues, and no I can't control my sensitivity, paranoia, or psychosis and no it's not their fault for causing me panic sometimes.

2) I struggle with substance use.

I wish I could tell them both of these things without the fear of being judged for stigmas around my mental issues and addiction.