Today, I want to........

have confident

Want to find a good listener and someone whom i can relate and hopefully find real guidance.

be happy

Dance like no one is watching.

Get a good night's sleep. That and maybe have a good dinner.

Have quiet peaceful dreams.

slow down. Breathe. Forget that I continue to worry about others think of me, what I think of me.

I want to just lay down and relax with the person who comforts me best.

Get a good night's sleep for once

Plan vacation number 3.

I have to create a default life for myself as the life I wanted and got to have for a short period of time before it was taken from me, is no more. I will not marry now, or have the ability to have children or grandchild and I have no friends of family. So my Plan B life will includes tons of travel, film, reading, adult coloring books, music, nature and animals and a damned good rocking chair on the days my knees are so shot that walking is too difficult.