Depressed

@Lovea What caused you to worry so much about making others happy? Myself, I grew up w/o a father around, so I had to take care of my brother and I while our mother worked. My mother would always complain though; I didn't do all the laundry, I didn't clean the entire bathroom - I missed the tub, I didn't help my brother clean his room .. things like that. Nothing was ever good enough and she babied my little brother, so I got used to taking care of everyone else and being ordered around. I moved out when I was 21 though, but she continuosly called and still calls asking to borrow money or visit b/c she is all alone in an assisted living complex. It took me a long time to get her complaining and criticism out of my mind and to be happy w/myself and appreciate the life that I have, but my mother seriously degraded me through the years and, like you said, I did everything to make her happy except myself. Now I am 30 and married and happy, but she still bothers me but she is the one suffering and I do not feel sorry for her. So my point being, you have to let all that stuff go .. whoever you were always trying to please and make happy .. forget it. You need to focus on yourself. Address your quality of life and how you can make yourself happy. Are you married? Kids? What do you like? My name on here is Trans Am b/c I love cars. I fix cars and if I could have any car .. I'd like an old Pontiac Trans Am. Maybe the one from Knight Rider. :) There is something that makes you happy and smile and laugh. I have a macaw parrot named Snoopy. She speaks Spanish and English, but she cusses a lot .. she says "What the f**k?" a lot. Well, I hope you find your happiness.