I just need a boost

Hello,

I recently began living on my own after seperating from my boyfriend/fiance of 5 years. I have never lived alone before, and have not been single since 2011. I have been struggling on and off. I am still able to go to work and take care of my cat, but ive been having issues with self care and regulating my emotions and thoughts when I am home alone. I work second shift (3-11:30pm EST) so I don't necessarily have someone I can talk to after work, when the negativity seems to be at its worst. I have never had good self-esteem, and I feel like I'm not a competent adult to be living alone. I also have c-PTSD which I was in therapy for but earlier this year my insurance co-pays increased significantly, and I was unable to continue treatment. I was on stable footing until the break up, and I see myself slipping back into old habits. I am not sure what I want to do with my life, and it is hard to know when I feel like I have had a non-stop veil of depression for pretty much my whole life. I al 24 years old and feel like I have much growing to do, but I need help to see how I can do that.

Thank you for reading.

- Ash