I'm a compulsive liar... and I need help...

Hi,

I've come to the site hoping to gain some help with this issue. I've been a liar ever since I can remember, and I've become really good at it over the years. The thing is though, over time, it's caused me to feel extremely guilty and depressed and anxious and just generally shitty. I feel so wrong about it and like such an awful person, sometimes I just wish I'd die and I figure the world would be a better place without someone like me.

This is the first time I'm coming out about this, the first time I'm being honest and real about this issue. I guess being anonymous allows for that, and I'm really hoping to find some support on here with maybe someone who has dealt with this too. I was looking into findig a therapist, however I don't have the means to pay 150 dollars a month and my insurance also doesn't cover mental health. So even therapy face to face costs me an arm and a leg.

I guess what I'm hoping to find is someone who might identify with this or any other addiction (because it feels like an addiction), or someone who might like to offer some advice or help on how to get myself unstuck. I'd really like to better myself as a person because I'm not feeling good about myself.

Thank you so much in advance!