Monster Mess Up.

I've become a man I vowed to never be. I've hurt the love of my life. She's gone and I don't see the point. I have no role to play. My friends don't need me. My job didn't need me. She doesn't need me. I'm not sure what in looking for. I'm not looking for someone to say "you're special" or "you just haven't found your thing yet". If I may be so bold to ask. I'm looking for maybe some sympathy. Those who've wonder back around in my life question why I think this way. They say someone in the world has gone through what I have. I've yet to meet them.