Feelings
Tell me how you feel right now, it will feel good to get it off your chest loves
Despondent
@PrettyRose75 i feel surprisingly very relaxed and calm. Not something I'm used to.
@PrettyRose75
I feel burdened with responsibilities, but I don't feel like doing any of them. I just lay the whole day doing nothing till the day ends. I always try to be the best infront of peoples eyes so they wont notice how tired and sad I am on the inside. I just want to stay alone all the time. I also feel lonely but I don't know why if someone tries to talk to me on my life issues I chase them away.
Unreal, and not in the positive sense, like Im not truly living. I cant feel any sort of connection to anyone or attachment. The most I ever feel these feelings is through stories, watching or readinf about others experiencing connection, living. I dont know why I cant i just seem so detached from everyone. Every word from my mouth feels fake, every response I make, feigning interest with random people so they dont stop talking with me, so Im not left with them again and their constant chatter. I dont even feel any sort of attachment with my parents, my family. I just feel, like a ghost. Unable to ever be connected or remembered, left to wander this godforsaken world, only able to feel somewhat alive through watching others live out their lives, unable to ever live my own life
@PrettyRose75 I need help.
i feel like a big part of me just di-ed.
I'm hurt and confused,
I work at pastry shop and baking, but recently eczema of my hand are getting worse because of this job and washing my hands, so I don't know if I can continue or not 😓
Thank you for asking that, I think I have mixed feelings, I'm tired but I know I can do more, I'm stressed but I'm hopeful about the stressful situation. Overall I'm weird lol
Sorry in advance to anyone who happens to see this. If this is bothersome or too long to read, do scroll ahead. Just getting this off my head as a last resort at this point. Things are just that bad rn
I feel a crippling sense of desperation and hopelessness. There isn't a single day where I don't run my body and mind to the ground to TRY and get decent at the things Im passionate about, but all my hard work is for nothing it seems. Im nothing. Ive achieved nothing. I feel mediocre. I put an inhuman amount of effort to achieve a level that people I know just start with. I have tried, but Im still not good at anything. Nothing disgusts me more than mediocrity and I refuse to continue being that way. Theres no hope and I get little satisfaction with every hollow victory, but I need to try, just to evade a fate worse than death. This sucks, but brute-forcing through all this suffering is still better than passivity, than being weak. Ive considered ending it all several times but havent attempted anything for fear of distressing my friends.
Everyone seems to be good at at least one thing but Im not. Im starting to not see a point in trying anymore. Im disgusting. Ive reached my limit
I feel ashamed of all the damage I caused with my drinking and thr people I've hurt.
