Ambigous
What/ Who should i live for? Myself? I don't know what i really want. I don't know who i really am. Friends and Family? They intentionally/unintentionally hurt, disappoint and frustrate me. Career/Hobby/Legacy? None of it matters. Whatever you've done - no matter how evil or good will be forgotten through time and will soon loose significance. What do i love doing? Who do i love? I don't really know. Why does it feel like nothing makes me motivated anymore? Gratitude, Love, Kindness..etc..- feel and express those qualitites so you become happier. But nothing matters. So how can i still be thankful for something that doesnt matter? Whats the importance of loving someone who doesnt really matter? What does death feel like? I wonder. What's the quickest way to die? A bullet through my brain? What's the least painful way to die? What happens after we die? Is there another world? Is it better or worse? Is reincarnation true? I'm wandering in this vast space of emptiness. Trying to figure out a purpose. Trying to decide wether i should end things now or later.
@Arrioh
I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling lost and struggling to find purpose and motivation. It sounds like you're grappling with some very difficult questions and feelings of hopelessness. It's understandable that you may feel overwhelmed and unsure of what to do next.
While I may not have all the answers you're looking for, I want you to know that your life has value and meaning, even if it doesn't always feel that way. You're not alone in feeling lost or uncertain about the future, and there are many resources available to help you navigate these difficult emotions.
Have you considered speaking to a therapist or counsellor? They can provide a supportive and non-judgmental space for you to explore your thoughts and feelings, and can offer guidance and strategies for coping with these difficult emotions.
It's also important to remember that finding purpose and meaning in life is a journey, and it's okay to not have all the answers right now. You don't have to have everything figured out all at once. Take small steps each day towards discovering what you enjoy and what brings you fulfilment.
Most importantly, please know that you are loved and valued. There are people in your life who care about you, even if they sometimes hurt or disappoint you. And while it may not always seem like it, the impact you make on others and the world around you is significant and long-lasting. I'm here if you want to chat with a listener, feel free to message me.
