Any advice on learning specific skills?

Hi there,

I don't really have anyone to explain this to. I've tried, but no one quite gets what I mean. Some listeners have been kind, but their responses can feel a bit vague. which isn't bad, but if this message resonates with you, I'd love to hear your thoughts.

Due to some family issues, I can't go out or do much right now. I also struggle with low self-esteem. But despite that, I want to be financially independent in my own way. I'm a CS student, and coding is scary. It's a craft you have to build, a skill you learn slowly. I've been learning for about a year and a half while balancing school. I graduated six months ago.

Coding was already scary, but I got through the basics and finally started building things on my own. I made four projects(all small) but they worked. The further I go, the harder it gets. It scares me because I keep asking: 'what if I'm just bad at this?'

I've never been naturally good at anything. I've always had to struggle just to reach a substandard point. Every now and then, I impress myself. But mostly, I'm used to people saying I wouldn't achieve anything. My parents believed that at one point, until I proved them wrong. I thought coding would be the same. But it's not. Every time I code, I feel exposed, face to face with how much I lack. I'm scared that maybe the doubts are true.

Even though I know you have to be bad before you can be good.