Consistent Disappointments and never seems to quit

What can be done to stop constant disappointment happening in life? I am someone that it happens to so many times and constant thing for me and it's so painful for me. I want things to start going right for me and not having to be on a constant alert mode that something could happen again and continue the cycle again and again. I'm I the only one whose ever experienced anything like this?

Its very hard and emotionally draining for me to always be on defensive mode and put on a brave face all the time and have my emotions on high all of the time.

I don't want to believe that this is how life is all the time I can understand things do happen but not to this agree of disappointment level. I can understand once abd awhile something can go wrong but not All the time!! That gets really old real fast when it occurs like it had and has done to me for YEARS and YEARS and still continues . What do u do !! What can u do!! I want it to finally stop for good abd not be a continued thing anymore!!!

Its like a curse in other words!!! Go away please!!

I'm not much of a superstitious person!! I don't want to think that! Its hard to stay postive and think that everything will work out when this happens so often for me . Exhausting as ever !! I can't afford anymore emotional pain and tears streaming down my face like it has done to me so much for years !! I don't want to be extremely sad anymore and constantly feeling frustrated!!!

I want to be free of worrying about that and finally be free of this horrible cycle!! Its awful going through this !!!!

Its like having a revolving door constant circling over and over again!!! Not fun going through this!! I'm at my breaking point of exhaustion and emotionally drained and very tired of going through this pain................