Entirely Nonsense
Hey everyone, just a vent about feeling irrational
I'm really lonely, but I also value my personal time so much I often neglect my friends.
I'm in constant want for support, but I cannot accept support, often I get angry at people who try to support me.
Things often make sense in my head, but as soon as I try to articulate them I can't pin it down anymore. Questions as simple as "how are you feeling?" become so complex in my mind I can't answer.
I often get angry at
minor irritations and quirks of people, but I'm quick to forgive people
who've actively wronged me if they show even a little regret.
@Dormo
Hi Dormo,
If I gave you any advice, would you be irritated? 😜
@SolitaryFairy
G'day Solitary Fairy,
Yes I suspect so, but thank you anyway
@SolitaryFairy
Sorry for the rather blunt response above, I wanted to edit but idk how to.
There's just so many things I've tried and none of them have worked, so much context that's probably required for good advice but each time I've shared it, it becomes harder the next. Now it feels near impossible.
@Dormo
The listeners' main rule here is "No advice."
There is a reason for that. Sometimes, we are in a state we cannot hear outer thoughts because we are so busy with the buzzing inside of our heads. Other times, we can observe ourselves, and we can make our decisions for the sake of our best interests. Therefore, no advice is necessary.
I felt a little hopelessness was sickening around your message. So, I decided to use a little humour about it. My apologies if it came out differently. I found it hard to show the layers of my thought via chat.
I hope you are feeling better.
@SolitaryFairy Thanks for the clarification, I'm a little weird with social queues even in person, but often I miss them entirely online. No harm done.
@Dormo hey i promise it will get better , im here for you if you need it
@calmKermit7178 I appreciate this comes from a good place but I just don't believe that
I can’t really find you to chat but I know that talking makes things better. The pain won’t go but it will come around less .
reach out me me … I can help if you need anything
@Dormo I understand how you feel about the struggle of valuing personal time versus the guilt of neglecting friends. You care for them and wish them well, but somehow can’t bring yourself to shoot a simple text or initiate plans. Why struggle with loneliness when there are people who actively show care and want to spend time with you, right? It makes absolutely no sense. You are not alone in this.
hey mate, i gotta say i understand this. i have the same thing. ive tried my best to just bite my tongue and step away, say i have to go to the toilet or smthn to get away from conversations or lie and say i feel sick. ive been openly snapping at my friends a bit more recently when this happens and it’s unfair and I always feel guilty afterwards.
i understand, im sure others do too, i hope even if it doesn’t change, no major negative affects come from it.
