Feeling not well

Hi! I hope you are all doing well! Personally i am not ok right now and i struggle a lot with my mental health. I have depression, anxiety and just am in a bad set of life circumstances and i cry a lot everyday. Life is so hard right now and i really don't see how i will be able to carry on like that. I am constantly so sad and unsupported by my family. I have no friends and the only friend i used to have was toxic and i decided to cut her off. I don't know why i am always attracting toxic or just bad people. I'm pretty sure that is due to the childhood emotional neglect i experienced as a child. I don't have the option to see a therapist right now and i am trying to heal on my own but it's not really going anywhere right now.. I am just so disgusted in life and in humans. I have been betrayed so many times and just don't know and don't even want to trust people anymore. I don't wanna be in a relationship either. Better be alone than heartbroken. I am feeling really really bad right now and i am on the verge of crying. I really needed to rant and get it out.

thank you to everyone who read it and i hope you will have a good day/night!