Feeling so bad
@Tinywhisper11 I would like to chat with you so much bestie😭😭 I really need to talk and you are such a kind soul that understands ❤️ I'm going through such a hard time. I am literally broken
@23helicopters hey sweetie! It's ok ❤ your gonna be ok ❤ we can talk here, just can't let it all out ❤❤ will cuddle you up in a cosy blanket while you talk to me ❤ I'm here for you ❤
Awww thank you❤️ you don't even know how much it means to me.
So lately I've been feeling more and more hurt. Like I just can't explain it but all the hurt from the past three years just started to go out of me and I was crying for hours and hours. I hate it. Even now I just wanna cry. I feel so miserable on the inside. Like I am broken. I also feel that no matter what I do NOTHING will change. I feel like a horrible human being that deserves nothing. I'm weak. I can't do anything. Ugh I better go and just watch a motivational video instead of burdening you Lola. You already have problems on your own.
It socks that I feel like a burden to everyone. I'm trying always to make myself small. I'm saying sorry a lot.
Personally I think it's all due to my childhood trauma that everyone in my family gaslighted me about.
I also wanted to say that I went to the ER twice or more (I don't even remember because I was in a big state of derealization) for "dark thoughts ". I feel so pathetic because some people go through worse things in life and don't have these thoughts and here I am, having a home a "family" , food on the table but still somehow I have this thoughts of I wish I was never born and worse.
I'm hanging on by a thread.
I don't wanna go to the ER again.
And I don't want take anti depressants because I know it's not what I need. I just need love and affection that I never had😭
I wanna get out of this situation but I don't know how 😭
It feels like there is no hope for me.
I'm always trying here to answer to people's reply ,welcoming newbies to the app and just be very kind because it's kinda like a therapy for me in the moment but then I still feel empty afterwards. I'm trying to encourage people , be kind to them and here I am suffering on the inside.
I just want a different family and a different life.
@23helicopters first of all we are friends, so you never have to feel a burden to me ❤ cause I love you ❤❤ but I understand the burden feeling very well, gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ it's ok to not want to exept meds, they are not right for every one. I know therapy isn't a option. And being so young there's not to much you can do about changing your situation, so yeah it probably does feel like it's a losing battle for you😞 but it's not, life is precious and in time it will get better, get easier. I know you can't see that right now. And never feel small or bad, cause others have it worse. It's not about them, it's about you ❤ and you are important and special and loving and kind. You deserve so much more than you've been given. Just don't give up ok? Trust me you will see happy days again, it will get better. Until then you have me🤗 you have all of us here. I love you and I care about you sooo much. You can vent here as much as you want, as much as you need. I love you ❤ and I believe in you ❤ huggs you tightly
@23helicopters tucks you into bed ❤ kisses you in the forehead, goodnight sweetie ❤ rest well ❤ you don't have to forgive them, that's not something that always helps. But you are better than them, so when you become a successful lady, with a loving family of your own, and your life is full of hapiness and laughter. Then you'll of won, and just maybe they will realise just what they did. Credit cards and things, haha! I don't even know how to use one! But once you've done theese things once, you'll realise how easy it is and that this was something you never even had to worry about ❤ I'm proud of you, for saying that their not worth a second of your time, cause realising that can help you move forward. Don't worry to much about the future, things always have a funny way of turning out ok ❤don't be hard on yourself for not having the energy or frame of mind to of study ied lately, it's ok to take a break. I think your a very very clever person, and you will pass all your exams ❤ let the want of freedom be your guide there. And yes please vent as much as you need, get it all out it will help you ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ I'm here for you sweetie ❤ and friends are sometimes better than family, you have me and always will ❤ I love you ❤ rest well sweetie ❤
@Tinywhisper11
HI! i needed a break so thats why i did not reply. You are the best person i have ever met in my entire life and i love you so much! I have ALWAYS wanted a friend like you. I cant believe i finally have one😭
Is that a dream or what?! 😭I am very tired lately and have a lot of things to do so i may reply with some delay like several days so do not worry girlie if i don't reply immediately💖I still need to vent a lotttt but am so tired of the difficulties of life so not now. But i will tag you again in another post whenever i will need to talk. Also, if you too, need to talk, do not hesitate!! Tag me whenever you want and i will try to reply as soon as i can! I want to support you too! You are my best friend and i love you so much and i will do everything i can to support you!!! bestie check💖💖💖
@23helicopters oh swetie I'm so glad to hear from you ❤ I've been very worried. But now I know it might be a few days between the time I hear from you, I won't panic. I know you got a lot going on. And it's understandable how tired you are. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤ and thanks, we are definetly bestiee. Get plenty of rest when ever you need to, and I'll be here for you always ❤❤❤
Thank you❤️ I was kinda upset doing my homework and wanted to give up but you made me more hopeful ❤️❤️❤️❤️ thank you and have an amazing day!!!
Hi! I hope you are doing OK❤️ can we chat? I just feel so lonely 😭 and it is so hard to actually talk to each other on this app! It makes me even more upset. I am so lost between all this forum posts! Why don't they allow memebers to message each other? They are many platforms when you can message each other but no here.. I'm starting to be so disappointed in this app
