Going through so much stress
I am going through so much stress right now. I am so tired and i can't even properly rest because whenever i try to i either get traumatic flashbacks or intrusive thoughts. I am so sick of this. I don't even remember what it's like to have a good sleep. I wake up exhausted. I have panic attacks during the day and sometimes i just can break down crying, it even happened once in the library while i was studying😭i am completely unable to concentrate on anything. My mind is always hyper aware and hyper vigilant. I am so easily started and it takes forever to even finish a 10 page pdf lesson. I just don't understand what i am reading😭i see the letters but my brain is so exhausted it can't even form words, so it takes me to reread it at least 3 times to understand the meaning. I have exams coming soon and i am a complete mess rn. Gosh it's way too hard i have no idea what to do. At this point it's not me who's finishing my degree but my degree who's finishing me
@schrodingerscattt I've probably told you this before, but health comes before anything, even education. I don't really know what to say to comfort you properly. You know I love you and it breaks my heart to see you struggle and suffer😞 I know study in is a great way to take your mind of things for a while. But the stress? Gotta ask yourself if it's working for you right now. Studys can be done again after a little break. Your health is so important to me. Mentally I'm not in your position you are much braver than me ❤ I wish I could help you, hug you ❤❤ but I can listen to you and try to say supportive words. Keep going ok! We are here to listen and support you ❤ we love you here ❤ I love you here ❤ gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Thank you so much!! I know, i'm putting so much emphasis on education rn because my whole life i was conditioned to do so. I feel like a failure if i take long breaks so even if i try to relax i'm still very very anxious. The thing is i also have to pass this exams because it's really important for my future career and it's all i want to do right now, to ensure myself a better future because there is no way i will fail. I struggle to prioritize myself but i really have to learn how to do that. Anyways thank you so much for your support💗 it means so much!! How are you doing by the way?
@schrodingerscattt I'm doing ok ❤❤ thanks for asking ❤ I wish you good luck with your exam, I know your a very very clever person, so you will pass it ❤❤ and you know studying might help ground and motivate you. Prioritizing things is hard when your not ill. But with mental health it's very very hard. All you can do is your best. Which I know you are trying, and your doing really well, even if you don't see it. Just remember to prioritise time for fun and trying to relax. Gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤❤ let me know how you do in your exam? I love you ❤ I'm always here for you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Thank you! It makes me so happy to see your reply❤ i'm so glad i have you in my life❤ it's good to know that you're ok. Your positivity about Christmas got to me and omg, now i'm actually excited?! I've come to terms that my family is they way it is and i will spend it alone but that actually doesn't mean i will cry all day. I wanna do something fun and just relax a bit😂
Thank you so much for being here. I really,really appreciate you❤❤❤
@schrodingerscattt
Oh and i also wanted to add i feel weird knowing your name but you don't know mine😂 so my name is Elena but you can call me Lena(i like this one more😂)
@schrodingerscattt hi lena ❤❤ you may have to tell me your name several times before it clicks in my head, so if you could just mention in your next few posts we should be ok😂😂 I'm sorry I haven't been around for a few days. I told you I was ok but really I'm only sorta ok ❤ have you made any more threads the past couple of days? I'll try to look for any you made. And yaaaay! Your getting excited for xmas 🤔🤔 fun but relaxing🤔🤔🤔 ok a cool toy and some lavender bath stuff😁 and many many many sweets and chocolate😋 oooo! Oooo! You could watch a Xmas film. Go for a Xmas comedy 😁😁 merry Christmas sweetie ❤ gives you a giant festive tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly
11 days to go 🎅🎅🎅🎅
@Tinywhisper11
Sorry for replying late i wasn't feeling that good mentally and needed a break. I'm so sorry that you're doing only sorta ok i really want you to feel better❤ online hugging you❤❤❤
Yeah i made other forum posts but it's hard navigating on here so it's totally ok if you don't see them all.
And also do you have any Christmas movies recommendations?? I've never watched any it wasn't a thing in my family so i need to knowww. And as you're such a Christmas expert😁 you sure know. Thanks in advance❤❤❤
@schrodingerscattt hugggs you back ❤❤ Xmas movies🤔🤔 deck the halls, or xmas with the cranks but the best one 🤔🤔 national lampoons Xmas vacation😁 sends you lots of love ❤merry Christmas sweetie ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I never heard of them! I have a lot on to catch up then😂😂😂 thank you thank you thank you❤❤❤ you really gave me the Christmas spirit!
